Self Denial – My three-month orgasm control program was interesting and, technically, a failure. As I wrote earlier, I tend to enjoy my kinks more the fewer orgasms that I have, so it can be exciting to spread them out over a period of time and try to go weeks between them. My plan was to limit releasing myself to only once per month. I was able to do that for the month of July and strangely enough it wasn’t that difficult, though at the end of the month, when I was at Fetishcon, I was starting to climb the walls. August and September though were suddenly much more difficult and I broke down and had two orgasms for both of those months. In September they weren’t even that far apart, about six days, I believe.
So although five orgasms over a three-month period isn’t very many, I simply wasn’t able to control myself as much as I had hoped to. In fact, by the time that September came, I was going a little crazy and am actually surprised that I only had two for the entire month, as I could have easily had many more. So for now, I’m going to take a break from the program and just try to space things out as far as I can, but without any specific numbers in mind. It was an interesting experiment and I would highly recommend trying it for anyone who’s curious about orgasm denial or chastity. When you go a long time without any release it can really add a heightened intensity to those moments when you get turned on, and it can make it just mind-blowing when you do finally give in. If you’re really lucky you can sometimes have the kinds of orgasms that you remember years later, rather than the usual duds (almost like blowing your nose) that I’m so familiar with.
Email and Twitter – My ability to keep up with email is as bad as ever, with a long queue of messages that I may or may not get to. I know when it reaches that overwhelm point, quite often I simply never get around to replying. I really dislike doing that (it really sucks!) but I know there are many people over the years whom I’ve never gotten back to and I hope they don’t resent me for it. Friends and contacts whom I see in real life I try to make an extra effort for, but sometimes I’m bad even with them, especially when my mood is low, which as I’ve mentioned several times on this blog, happens more often than I like to admit.
I also haven’t really had a lot to blog about lately, and feel like I’ve been neglecting things here, but I have lately been fairly active on Twitter. I actually find I like it a lot more than I expected and I kind of wish all emails were limited to 140 characters – I’d be completely caught up if they were! My profile is here and there are a lot of other bondage people on the site too. It’s really easy to post individual pictures on Twitter too, much easier than on the blog, so I’ve been posting some pics there too. I don’t own a smart phone so thankfully I can’t go around all day long texting messages to post, which is for the best. And I’d hate to be one of those fanatics who tweets fifty times a day. Believe me, my life is not THAT interesting. I’m also on Facebook and Fetlife, so if you’re on those sites and would like to send me a friend request, please do. I say yes to most everyone, unless you start sending me political emails!
So that’s my exciting update – not-very-succesful orgasm control, way behind on email and posting random sexy pics and silly cartoons on Twitter – Yes!
Hi Sandra,
I think that to hold up his orgams or sexual desires is so frustrating that it becomes a great pleasure.
Sometimes, it’s his ou her partner that contrôl your pleasure and it is equally frustrating and exciting.
I remember those old vids you did with Delilah. Did you remember whe she had tied up you on a chair, legs spread, a large ball gag filling your mouth and hands in your back. You were completly in distress unable to avoid her contrôl on your body. She put a ball gag in her mouth and she sat astride on your thighs, rubbing her hard dick to your body. As I watched that part of the vid, I can’t think that your frustration was at it maximum, and I could nearly feel how exciting it was for you to feel your own penis, hard, but not relieved … It was a very great video …
I use to frustrate myself to get a lot of pleasure. I put on woman clothes, wearing a pantyhose without any panty, so my hard cock rub the smooth nylon of the pantyhose … So arousing !
Then I put the other feminine clothes (dress, bra, heels …) and I tie up myself and gag my self.
So I’m there, laid down on my bed, wriggle myself and feeling my sex growing harder, feeling the pleasure coming … But I refuse to cum, I just turn on my side, and wait to my penis to calm.
After a few minuts, I start again my game, and again, and again …And when I’m tired, I stop, untie myself and go under the hot shower…. Boy, this is delicious … :-)
Paddy
Sandra,
Paddy mentions your friend Delilah Knotty.
What has become of her? Her blog has not been updated in over 3 years.
She presented a fantastic feminine image in bondage.
Hi Dim,
Yes, Delilah’s doing just fine but she’s very very busy with her life and has just taken a break from being online, though she’s still active…We did have some great times back then…
I read this blog entry with great interest. I know of what you speak.
Without a partner or a device to help control release, I too have gone many days between orgasms. My longest stretch of the last 20 years is about 42 days. I know I topped 40, but not much more than that.
I find that once I get to about two weeks the frustration level is at its peak. I don’t deny myself my femininity when I push myself, so the temptation is there. Once I get somewhere past two weeks I find myself slightly less challenged, and I undergo emotional changes, not the kind I would have expected. I find myself craving femininity more, even though I’m not using it as an outlet for release. I find myself needing femininity. And I find that I have different emotional feelings toward women I lust after. I find myself wanting to experience love rather than just sex. Weird, I know, and temporary, inevitably.