Another year’s almost over and as I mentioned earlier, it’s been a very mixed one. Sadly enough, the event that colored this year the most for me was the death of Paul Logan (“Chainguy“) back in February. It was very helpful, though, to travel back to L.A. several times in 2011 and see friends who knew and appreciated him. When I go to Threshold now and am hanging out, sometimes I’ll look around and have those sad moments when I’ll think, “Oh man, Paul would have really loved this party,” (especially if someone’s getting handcuffed!)

Of course, life goes on and the living have to continue and make the best of it. Not to diminish the impact of Paul’s passing, and in contrast it almost seems in bad taste to say this, but I’ve also had some really really fun and enjoyable times this year. FetishCon was awesome and so much fun getting to shoot with Sybil, Jean Bardot, JJ Plush, Master Allen, Brittany and Judy. Shooting with Ohphelia and Cincher in Chicago was really nice too, and AmberKatt and I did a number of fun shoots here in Denver over the course of the year. My good friend Delilah Knotty also got to visit here in Denver just this last weekend and we had a blast, doing a marathon photoshoot that went all day and wrapped up around 2:00 in the morning. Also, getting turned onto karaoke has been a lot of fun this year, and it was great going to the Santa Fe Tavern on Fridays until, well, it all fell apart and we CDs and TGs were uninvited – that whole situation still seems so weird and baffling. The last visit back to L.A. around Halloween was also amazing, shooting pics and videos, seeing friends and going to some great parties. Usually I get reflective and melancholy around the holidays but to be honest I’ve been feeling good about things and am looking forward to the end of the year.

Moving Back to L.A. – One big change for me that I’ve only talked to a few people about is that I’m planning to move back to Los Angeles early in the new year. My friend at whose house I’ve been staying when I visit made me an offer I can’t refuse – to rent from her and stay at her place as a roommate. Denver’s nice and very low stress and I’m sure I’ll come back here again to visit and maybe even live here again at some point. But L.A. still has such a draw for me and I have so many friends there. And even though Southern California can be a challenging and stressful place I just really want to go back even if it turns out to be only a temporary move. I have thought several times of moving back this last year, especially after Paul died, but the idea of driving around alone and finding an apartment in Burbank or someplace has always felt daunting. So the chance to move back and stay in a nice house in the Valley with a good friend – well, I can’t pass it up. Depending on the weather here in Denver, I’ll be packing up sometime later next month and should be back in SoCal by February at the latest. I know that living there again will not be the same as visiting, which always has a heightened sense of fun, but I’m still very excited and hopeful.

So again, 2011 has had its highs and lows, though it seems to be ending on a high note. I know a lot of friends out there are struggling, especially with finances and work, and I can only hope that things get better for everyone in the new year. I also want to thank everyone who’s currently supporting the site and everyone who’s supported it in the past. I am truly grateful and owe so much to all of you. I couldn’t do it without all the generous paying members over the years and I’m hoping to shoot some new and unique things in L.A. in 2012. All the best in the new year and I hope everyone has a meaningful and fun time with family and friends over the holidays!