It was a good night yesterday at the Club Fantasy party. We had one of our biggest turnouts yet, about 30 people, with quite a few regulars and lots of new faces too.

I got to play with a friend of mine who put me into some bondage and sent me off into orbit. Sometimes when you play bondage games it can be fun, sometimes it can be work – especially if you’re the one doing the tying – and every now and then you can have a scene that hits you deep in that special place and sends you sailing.

The physical – A lot of times I’ll feel a little awkward in my own skin, a slight feeling of unease, as though I’m walking on a floor that hasn’t been finished and there are high patches and low patches that threaten to trip me up. I’ve never felt particularly graceful and was never very good at sports.

But sometimes when you’re doing bondage, which obviously involves a lot of touch – that physical intimacy can really focus my awareness and feel so much more real to me than the usual mundane activities of the day. I tend to live in my head a lot, but that physical touch can be so grounding. My mind quiets down and the rest of the world fades away and there’s just that moment. My eyes are closed, I feel that touch, and that’s it.

In other words it was a good scene.