I’ve been staying in a short term sublet here in Denver and am moving to a new place in town at the end of the month. Every time I move I always feel a little nervous about the prospect of dressing and going out again and inevitably being seen by the neighbors. That little walk from the front door to the car always seems to be the toughest. Going out and being in a club or even out on the streets aren’t that big a deal in comparison, although to be honest I’ve never really enjoyed going out in the daytime all that much.
For someone who has their pictures all over the internet I’m really kind of private and don’t like that much attention in the real world. And the thought of being seen by the neighbors always makes me worried. I always wonder what would happen if they were totally freaked out and wanted to make a situation out of it, although that’s never happened. Back in L.A. there were lots of neighbors in a fairly concentrated area and I was seen many times, without any issues about it. I know there are some crossdressers out there who have this incredible confidence and who will go anywhere and not feel any doubt or anxiety about it. I’m not sure how one does that! I mean, I’ve been out many times and can’t say I’ve had any major problems, but it’s never been something that I just love to do.
I do suspect everything will work out fine at the new place, as every other place I’ve been before has worked out fine. And there’ll be a little more space than I’m used to, so I’m looking forward to that, especially for future photoshoots. Wish me luck though. I’ll be loading up the UHaul truck yet again in about three weeks, but only driving a few miles this time.
It always amazes me at how shy we are about being in certain places or doing certain things. I used to manage and work in large apartment complexes and seldom knew or cared too much about who lived where or did what yet ran into many people everyday. A funny story though. There was a gorgeous blonde who lived in a complex I helped manage and she was laying by the pool on a hot sunny day, and I was walked by, she was gorgeous so I always looked at her, she must have fell asleep and got a woody! I grabbed a towel from the office and quietly placed it over her lap and continued about my business. The tenant approached me about it later feeling very embarrassed, but I assured her that her secret was safe with me. In spite of the pool area being crowded no one either noticed or said anything.
Hi, PF – Wow, that sounds like quite a blonde if she could pull off the whole swimsuit look – I’m impressed! ;-)
It is funny – I actually did some apartment managing with a friend years ago in the 80s and saw a lot, though never any crossdressers that I was aware of. Somehow I can still do a big head trip on myself though!
Hello Sandra,
I understand your fear. Perhaps are you just afraid of been “dicovered” as a TV and be judged with disgust, especially by women (you know what I meen, with this half icy, half angry look in the eyes…). When I crossdressed, I managed to go out in public, in town, in the daylight. It was very thrilling and exciting, but of course, afer some time, it was a lot embarrassing. You never know if you look passable or like and old fag. Well, these days are gone …
XXX
Paddy