I was in the grocery store the other day and stopped in my tracks when I saw this cover of Us Weekly with Christina Aguilera in this stunning pink dress. OMG, the dress and her pose and the curves of her body – everything about this is so hot that it’s almost painful to look at. I was standing there staring and then realized I was staring and should probably move on so I don’t look like a total lech, but I could barely tear my eyes away from it, my oh my…
There’s this bizarre spam email going around that when you open it simply says, “Your life is crap.” Nothing more, no links for Cialis or anything. I got one this morning and thought, “Hmm, that’s odd.” At first I wondered if maybe it was an anti-tranny email from someone wholly offended by my “lifestyle.” (I actually get emails like that occasionally, but quite often there’s talk of repenting and changing my wicked ways before I burn in hell – usually though they seem to prefer I just burn in hell.) Then I read this blog post from someone else and what he says makes sense, that the email is probably just intended to get a reply and verify that your email address is valid to add to the spam list. Quite clever, if nasty. It is kind of funny in an absurd sort of way though.
Last night on PBS there was an interesting documentary on depression that examined some of the underlying brain chemistry that’s often involved, and talked to many different people suffering with some form of the disorder, from mild to severe. A lot of it was fairly grim but overall I found it quite hopeful. I’ve been using alternative methods – St. John’s Wort, social support, and lots of exercise – the last six months or so for my own occasional low moods, but to be honest about twice a week I still think about going back on prozac. I do fine without it but 2008 so far has definitely been a tougher year than last and some of it is no doubt because I’m not on the pills. It would be so nice to do it without the meds, but I still may go back on them.
If you’re interested in the subject PBS actually has the entire show online here.
Also a shorter preview here.
They also talked to Andrew Solomon, author of The Noonday Demon, which is one of the best books on the subject that I’ve read. He suffered a very severe case several years ago and I was amazed to see the number of different pills he takes everyday to keep himself together.
I was just checking my stats and saw that Jane’s Guide just gave me a real nice review for Trannies in Trouble. What a nice surprise! You can check it out here on the Fetish TV and TS page. Or click through the what’s new pages.
Here are a couple more recent drawings from W. that I wanted to share. I really love his work – heck, he makes me look so good. ;-) I don’t know how he gets such a unique look with the blue paper but it’s really striking.
I think it’s really cool that the state Supreme Court here has overturned the gay marriage ban. I hope it lasts and that we don’t have to vote on some new discriminatory proposal in November. It’s inevitable that with time more and more states where these bans have been passed will do the same. There’s no going back, nor should there be.
A very talented online friend whom I met on MySpace recently sent me this terrific drawing that she did, inspired by one of my pictures from Ts in T. Her name is Leena Legarsi and she has more great work on the Deviant Art website. It’s not always the easiest site to navigate, and you’ll probably have to sign up for a free membership there to see all her work, but here’s the page where the drawing was originally posted. There are links there on the left to Leena’s other drawings and her profile. It’s definitely worth signing up for a free membership on the site. Thanks so much, Leena! I love the drawing!
DomCon turned out to be pretty good. But I have to say, I sometimes feel a little out of place when I go, because it really is geared to the dominatrix scene, which to be honest, doesn’t really do that much for me. There were lots of lovely ladies there and I saw a lot of good friends. But I sometimes wish I got off more to the idea of serving a “domme” female, but I just don’t seem to be wired that way. A lot of times when I look at the beautiful dommes there I just wish I could see Them in bondage. I guess the thing that gets in the way for me is the whole idea of D/s – dominance and submission – which is obviously so prevalent in “the scene.” My own fantasies tend to be more in the direction of non-consensual bondage and abduction (and yes, I’m just talking fantasy here, not reality). To be honest, I’m really not particularly interested in “submitting” to or “serving” anyone, or having anyone submit to or serve me. It’s maybe a fine point, but there is a difference. It’s a difference, though, that unfortunately often leaves me feeling like a bit of an outsider in the whole bdsm scene.
Just a reminder that DomCon LA is going on this weekend at the LAX Hilton. I’ll be there wandering around and checking out the presentations most all day Friday and Saturday, and I should be attending the Saturday night party. If you see me there, come over and say hi. I’m looking forward to seeing a lot of friends and lovely models and pro dommes. It should be a lot of fun…
Wow, I feel like I just lost half a week here. I spend way too much time in front of the computer so I’m always a little concerned about having the thing die on me without good back-ups handy. Well, my main hard drive had been making these weird little clicking noises for a couple weeks so I figured I’d better install a new one before it died on me. I cloned the entire drive to an external hard drive just in case, and figured I could then put in a new C: drive, re-install windows and all my software and be right back in business. Ah, optimistic me. It turned out to be a royal pain, with much swapping back and forth of the new drive and the old drive, etc.
The worst part was that once I had Windows re-installed, and was preparing to re-install all the drivers, the monitor would only display at 640×480, and the areas on the screen where I needed to click weren’t even showing up anymore. If I could just click on that box two inches off to the lower right I’d be fine. I lost about a day on that one and finally figured out a work around.
Well, I finally got everything all working but I’ve been dealing with it off and on since last Friday. I’m not really complaining – well, just a little – since I didn’t lose anything and everything seems to be working fine. It’s always great having a fresh operating system without all the accumulated crud that slows things down. Now I just turn it on and it fires right up without the five-minute-long churning and searching that it used to do whenever I booted up. It never works exactly like it used to after installing a new system drive, which can be frustrating, but in a week or so I won’t remember. Now, I just have to back up this drive. Be prepared, as they say.
I saw this ad for the German movie “Four Minutes” in the paper the other day. It looks like the movie might actually be quite good, though I wouldn’t expect much in the way of bondage titillation. It looks like there may be some medical restraints and handcuffs involved, as it apparently takes place in a women’s prison. Very nice movie poster though.
I got a recent group email from Jay Wiseman, with another awful bondage death in the news involving accidental asphyxiation.
This one involves a woman in Tennessee who tied up her husband and did what sounds like a very heavy gag with a ballgag and ace bandage. Apparently detectives are also pursuing an angle that she was also seeing another man, and the dead man’s sister is suggesting that she planned to kill her brother to get him out of the way. Here’s another article from a tv news channel with their pictures.
It appears Shane Ryan has been busy at work and is already out with a follow up to last year’s disturbing Amateur Porn Star Killer. (I wrote a review of it here.)
I heard from Chad at Pollystaffle.com, who’s once again doing a ticket giveaway for the midnight screenings April 25th and 26th at Laemmle’s Sunset 5 for Fangoria’s Weekend of Horrors in Los Angeles (just scroll down on the above link for details). I’m not sure if I can make it to this one, but the first film was very disturbing and thought provoking, so it should be a memorable and squirm-inducing night.
A very talented artist who wrote me a while back recently sent me some awesome drawings that he’s done of Vivian Chen, Dominoe Lane and me. He graciously agreed to let me post them on my blog here. They’re really terrific, and I’m definitely looking forward to seeing what else he does in the future. Thanks so much, W!
We just finished up the Kinkster Hike a few hours ago and I had a really fun time. We had a decent turnout in the morning and had a good hike up to the Griffith Park Observatory and then a really nice lunch at the cafe, with several other people meeting us there. There was a lot of good conversation and people seemed to be having a good time hanging out and enjoying the view. It was a pretty hot day, so maybe planning this event earlier in the year might have been better, but several of us braved the heat in the afternoon and went the rest of the way up Mount Hollywood. I think all together some of us hiked about 5 miles. I love that feeling of being tired out and sore afterwards, with the endorphins flowing and that beautiful sense of well-being. I’m not sure if this will become an annual or semi-annual thing but it might, depending on the feedback I hear. We shall see. In any case, it was great for me, as I’ve wanted to do a group hike like this for years.
Here’s an interesting article I recently came across about a young woman who had a guy kidnap her for her own curiosity and for a feature article in the Portland news. The funny thing is how she says that after a while the real experience never came close to the fear and anticipation leading up to it. But that opening paragraph is pretty sexy with the tape and nylon sleeping bag and difficulty breathing. I also like those pictures they took (just wish they were larger). ;-)
It makes me wonder, though: has anyone out there reading this blog used Craigslist to arrange their own kidnapping, or had any similar experience like this? I’ve heard of the services that arrange a professional kidnapping for a fee. Maybe I should start a new business in California and get rich, although I’d really just rather be the kidnappee myself…
(I just wanted to repost this from the Trannies Yahoo Group):
I have a friend in the L.A. area who’s teaching a human sexuality
class, and she has a survey she’s doing to collect data for the class.
If you have a moment and can fill it out, I know it would help her out
a lot.
It’s completely confidential and no identifying information will be
asked for. The completed surveys will only be used in the context of
the class and will not be reposted or circulated afterwards. Thanks
for helping her out if you can!
The link is at the bottom of this website…
Continuing the homoerotic theme, I heard about this weird video on Newsweek, with the actor being interviewed and getting a spongebath with another guy, Craig Bierko, in a bathtub. I don’t know what to say.
Okay, I’m just making up for all the lack of blogging in March. Hey, it comes in spurts (okay, that sounds bad).
I just heard about this amazing story in The Advocate while listening to Dan Savage’s podcast. He says it’ll blow your mind, and indeed it does. A trans man who was born female and is now legally male, is pregnant and keeping his male identity. Wow! The world is an amazing place. I think it’s pretty neat actually, as he’s totally twisting around our expectations of what’s possible. Not surprisingly, he and his wife, who years earlier had to have a hysterectomy, have had a hell of a time finding doctors who are willing to work with them on their unique situation. Five months into the pregnancy their baby girl is healthy and developing without complications.
Well, it looks like my MySpace profile hath disappeared – very strange. I was really busy for a few days and couldn’t log in much and when I got back – nothing. It is mildly frustrating, though not enough to lose any sleep over. I sometimes hear people say that they’re being censored or discriminated against when their profiles get deleted, but I don’t like to jump to conclusions. Who really knows why a profile disappears? All we can really say is that one day it was there and the next day it wasn’t. For all I know it could just as easily be a server glitch that vaporized it, or some especially active sunspots. Who knows?
I’ll probably make another profile at some point, though honestly I never liked MySpace that much because it’s so painfully slow. Sometimes I would click on a picture or a link to someone’s profile and the site would just churn away for a couple minutes before showing up. Of all the networking sites I’ve been on it has to be about the slowest. So taking a break from the thing is actually sort of welcome. In any case, if you’re on MySpace and sent me an email or a friend request it’s lost in the vapors somewhere.