I just re-did the links page on the site and uploaded it here. I liked the older design too, which I had up for about three years, where you could submit and add your own link to the page, but over time it attracted more and more spammers and I would have to log on twice a day just to delete the junk links for cialis and penis enlargement. So I finally decided to go back to the old design and scrap the add-your-link feature. If you know of any good links I should add, especially for crossdressing bondage sites, feel free to send me an email or leave a comment here.

I had a really fun time shooting recently with Ohphelia and Cincher and just wanted to post a few frame grabs from the video that we shot a couple weeks ago and that I just posted on the site. I finally come out as a crossdresser to my aunt Ohphelia and she introduces me to bondage as a way to make me more submissive. Of course, if I’d really had an aunt like this back when I was a teenager I would have been in heaven!

My friend Mr. K. just sent me this cute magazine cover from a recent pic. I love stuff like this and remember secretly glancing at those old true crime magazines when I was a kid, though I never had the nerve to actually pick one up. Oh, and yes, my captors really did feel no shame as they felt me up – no shame at all!

I’m planning to shoot some new pictures with Cincher very soon so I’ve been doing some shopping to get a few new outfits. I went out to the mall this morning and got a couple things at Burlington Coat Factory (one of my favorites, especially for jewelry) and then worked up the nerve to go check out Forever 21. Stores like that that cater to “Juniors” (that is, teens and early twenties), I find rather intimidating, since I’m, well, solidly middle-aged and, yeah, a guy. So I always fake it and try to pretend I’m relaxed and belong there and usually it goes well enough. Once I find something that’s promising, the nerves tend to drop considerably and I can focus on the task at hand. The girl in the store who asked if I needed help was very cool, so that helped. I only found one tight banded skirt which I think will work pretty well, and also some jewelry, but it’s always good to shop in places I find a bit scary as it makes next time that much easier. Their clothes are so inexpensive too that even if the stuff didn’t fit I probably wouldn’t even bother returning them, but would just give them away to Goodwill or to a friend. I also checked out DressBarn (a little too frumpy) and a few other places; was going to check out BCBGMaxAzria but – whoa! – they are super expensive.

So anyway, just another morning wandering around the mall. I *kind* of like going there although it can be a little lonely too going from store to store, especially if I’m not finding much. Last week I stopped by a local thrift store and actually did much better, finding a nice tight brown dress with shoulder pads – I thought they might be too much but the look actually worked and I’ll probably wear it when I see Cincher. Ross was also a good recent stop – always a mixed bag with that store but sometimes when it clicks I can get that shopper’s high for an hour or two.

I love karaoke because it’s a rare chance to cut loose from my usual inhibitions. The disappointing thing is that I’m not a particularly good singer, and in fact can be rather piercing and nasally when I’m at my worst. But even so, it can be a lot of fun to just go for it. If anyone’s interested I might post some videos at some point but they are rather wince-inducing for me to watch. Here’s some frame grabs, though, taken by my friend AmberKatt, with me in that favorite greenish-blue blouse from last night at my favorite karaoke place, The Santa Fe Tavern in Denver with super-cool Spaceman Mike! as the DJ. The songs were, in the first picture, “Surrender” by Cheap Trick and in the other two pics, “Lust for Life” by Iggy Pop.

One year away in Tampa.

This was my third FetishCon and I would say it was the best so far. I met lots of people, saw good friends whom I sometimes only see once a year, shot lots of pictures, went to lots of parties, and basically crammed way more into four days than I normally do in a month. The first day the lovely Sybil and I were able to shoot and we had a special treat with the fabulous Jean Bardot stopping by. It’ll be awesome having Jean and Sybil together on the site in the weeks ahead!

Then that evening was the big Thursday Meet N Greet party – one of the best events – and they had Kinky Karaoke too at the end of the evening – Who hoo! I’ve never sung in front of that big a group before but I gathered my courage and signed up. The party probably had 200 to 300 people, although the area where they did Karaoke was probably closer to 50 people actually paying attention (sort of). And it was a tough crowd since there were so many distractions, including a few trampling scenes going on nearby, but I went big and gave it my all for Alice Cooper’s “Billion Dollar Babies,” one of my favorites. Sadly, I have no pics of me making a total fool of myself – well, I do, just not singing ;-)

I also had a chance to meet my new friend Allen G., whom I’ve been chatting with the last couple months. He’s very good with the ropes and is a huge fan of pantyhose encasement and full-body bondage. We got to shoot a couple things over the weekend and I really look forward to doing some more with him in the future. There were many high points to the weekend and getting tied up by Allen was definitely one of them.

It was a long weekend and Saturday I was already starting to droop, but that evening I ran into Brittany Morgen, whom I’d talked to earlier in the day, and we were finally able to shoot some pics (we’ve been talking about doing something for years!) Our friend Judy helped out immensely and we had a fun time, and I got to try out a new latex dildo gag on poor Brittany. I don’t think she minded.

There were lots of things going on – including a bondage escape contest, pitting two girls in teams against one another. Here’s Britney Morgan, I believe, with Lew Rubens above, designer of the liplocker gag; also the super-cute Michelle Peters and her bondage partner.

Also, obviously lots of cute girls, and there seemed to be trampling scenes going on everywhere you turned. It’s always great to see Art_esia too, who has to be the ultimate super-fan at this event. She knows absolutely Everyone, and hey, she’s even taller than I am in heels!

A huge draw for the event are of course all the fetish and bondage models running around – they’re everywhere! Everyone was very cool and approachable, and it’s always amazing to be talking to these ladies whom you’ve seen online and in magazines so many times. Here are Akira Lane and Christina Carter above.

With Hannya Strange and Aimee Reyes, whom I met while taking a lunch break – real nice girls.

With Jewell Marceau and Anastasia Pierce – two super-sweet ladies!

Looking a bit scared with the stunningly beautiful and deadly Mosh – amazing on so many levels.

One of the coolest ladies at FetCon, the lovely JJ Plush, whom I had the honor of getting to shoot with, and yes, getting tied up by JJ is sweet! She’s a class act all around.

With the amazing Julie Simone – I’ve always admired her and her mysterious manner.

And of course the fantastic Sandra Silvers. We Sandra’s gotta stick together – very cool lady.

I was also very struck by Yvette from Germany, who was wearing this unique and inescapable elbow binder. It looks really cool though it’s not cheap – I believe, normally over four hundred dollars, though there was a FetCon special in the two hundred range. She certainly looks lovely in it though and has several cool websites, Yvette-Xtreme, SuperTightBondage, and she appears at BoundCon in Germany.

And finally, he’s not pretty to look at, but I LOVE the Reverend B. Dangerous, who does the final act at the final Sunday night party. This guy is amazing! During his freakshow performance he chews on broken glass, gets a drill up his nose, eats nasty crawly things, has a big dude stand on the back of his head while he lies in broken glass, and generally just gets the crap beaten out of himself, with no illusions or tricks – he just endures it. I actually get a little teary eyed when he’s wrapping up the show and getting a cinder block busted on his nuts with a sledge hammer by the lovely Kendra James – once his pain ends, it means the convention is winding down for another year too! But I just love shows like this where everyone can scream and holler and go crazy while he does his madness on stage – something about his lunacy really touches me deeply. And he’s a real nice guy off the stage! I had a blast clowning around with him for the camera afterwards (that’s real blood) and hope to see him again, and everyone, at next year’s FetCon.

FetishCon’s winding up to be one of the best yet! I’ve been meeting a lot of people and doing some fun shoots, some of which should be quite unique. Just shooting one more time this evening and then heading down to the final Sunday night party, which is usually the best of the weekend. I’m flying back tomorrow, and I’ll have more of an update later this week and post a few pictures here. Tuesday I’m sleeping till noon if my body lets me!

Oh, and I met my goal of only one orgasm for July. When was it? Last night – no more details than that ;-) I’m going to start fresh and repeat the program for August…We shall see.

It looks like my flight to Tampa for FetishCon is running a couple hours late so I’m just hanging out in the Denver airport again. Thankfully I wasn’t planning to shoot anything this evening, so it’s no big deal. I’ll probably just wander around the hotel and see if anyone I know is there, and then unpack and shave and soak in the tub tonight. Like I mentioned before, I hate packing for these things, though it finally all came together pretty easily yesterday. I’m always trying to streamline my travel routine, so when I get home I’m thinking I’ll take pictures of the contents of my bags, and then lay everything out according to what I wore / didn’t wear / bondage gear used / didn’t use, and take more pictures of the piles, which will probably help a lot with the next trip. It’s probably a little sad to admit but fussy things like that excite me almost as much as the convention itself! ;-)

Oh, and as for the Self Denial program (three blog posts below), here it is the 27th day of July and to quote Seinfeld, I’m still the Master of My Domain.

Here’s one more extra shot from this week’s update. I liked this shot but the way I’m standing makes it look like I was chopped off at the waist and twisted around at a forty-five degree angle. Still shows the legs quite nicely though ;-) The bondage that goes with this one (check out that link above) was very strict and effective – there was no way I was getting out of that chair without a very long and drawn out struggle. And even then with the elbows tied I still might not have gotten free!

Packing for a trip is one of my least favorite things in the world, so I’m trying to get a head start on FetishCon coming up next week. Since I started going back to L.A. last year fairly often, I made up a master list of things to take – outfits, duct tape, high heels and so on, which helps some though I can still find myself paralyzed by moments of doubt. I’m doing pretty well on getting things organized here but have yet to try to actually shove everything into two large suitcases, plus a laptop case and the camera bag. Schlepping all this stuff through the airport is a pain but it’s worth being there for the event. There are a few people I’m planning to shoot with and some new online folks I’ve been chatting with and look forward to meeting. It’s still a week away but should be a good time. I’ll probably be out of touch on the blog here while I’m gone and extra-bad with email but should have some nice new pictures when I get back. If you’ve never been there, it’s a great convention with loads of bondage models walking around. Hope to see you there!

This is probably one of those “too much information” posts, but recently I was chatting with some online friends about the subject of self-imposed chastity, or what I like to call self denial, where you limit the number of orgasms that you allow yourself during a given time period. This is obviously quite different from wearing an actual chastity device, a subject which also intrigues me, but not something I’ve ever tried. Instead of the control being imposed by a device and someone who perhaps holds the key for it (that does sound like fun, though the logistics of going to the gym and so on seem tricky), self denial on the other hand is simply using your willpower to keep yourself from masturbating and allowing the sexual tension to build up over time. I’ve found that I always enjoy my kinks and interests more if I have fewer orgasms and, not surprisingly, after a couple weeks of no release I find that when my mind turns to such things there’s usually a heightened intensity to them. Sometimes it’ll be pretty easy to go days at a time without any release, and other times it’s all I can do to not find some sexy pictures on Fetlife or Flickr and get it done!

Well, I haven’t done this sort of thing in quite a while, but I was thinking about it last month, so I decided to try to limit myself to one orgasm for the month of July and then see how the rest of the summer goes (thankfully FetishCon is at the end of the month – if any event can destroy my willpower that one certainly could). So far here we are on the early morning of day sixteen (just got back from Friday night karaoke) and surprisingly it hasn’t been too difficult, though I had a few tough moments when I saw some nice bondage pictures and some pictures of a very cute CD a few days ago that got to me pretty bad. We shall see how the rest of the month goes. I really don’t know how long I’ll last, or if I’ll be able to keep this up (so to speak) and of course I could always call in my one orgasm tomorrow, though that would leave the rest of the month ahead of me with no release at all, so I’d rather save it till the end of the month. Just as an aside, the longest I ever held myself back was actually two months and that was when I was a terribly guilt-ridden eighteen-year-old. I still don’t know how I lasted that long at such an early age, though my reasons for doing it were motivated by guilt and self-loathing then; whereas now it’s almost like an extended period of foreplay (as an online friend said). I’ll most likely be posting more updates here as things progress, for better or worse…

And just before heading out the door Friday night for the Santa Fe Tavern…And that same shiny blouse will be in the next update on the site.

A while back I posted some pictures from a French CD who had made some really terrific damsel in distress drawings. A few weeks later I heard from Gwen in Corsica who’s friends with the girl who drew the pictures (I should have thought of asking Gwen years ago, as she seems to know everyone in Europe!) Gwen very kindly put me in touch with the mysterious artist, who left a nice blog comment. It was a real thrill to be chatting with Catherine Nylon, who indeed made the drawings in question (though she insists that she’s no artist – just someone who likes to draw her fantasies). I’ve wondered for over ten years who produced them, so it really did feel like a mystery finally being solved. We’ve been exchanging some emails and Catherine very generously agreed to let me post some more of her drawings here and a few of her self-bondage photos, which are also very nicely done and reflect her same interests that we see in her drawings.

My old high school French is really bad but I’ve been able to get the gist (sort of) of some of the captions on the drawings, which I’ll post below, referring to them with numbers from left to right, top to bottom. The numerous mistakes are of course my own.

1. Isabelle is the young servant of Myriam, who enjoys tormenting the young girl according to her whim. Having done a bad job at housekeeping, she’s bound and gagged the young girl to a post in the basement. “There you are Isabelle dear, tightly bound and gagged. I’m going to leave you here all day; that will teach you to do the housework!”

2. (This one is tough!) “There, my little pretty one. You’d better be smart or I’ll do something nasty to your pretty face!” Now at the hands of a dangerous psychopath…(the rest of it eludes me, something about poor Gwendoline).

3. NA

4. “It’s going to be hard to keep my hands off you, my pretty one, but now that I have you, I’m sure your father will pay me a nice ransom if he ever wants to see his little dear again safe and sound.”

5. In the den, Isabelle the young house servant was grabbed and made helpless by the female thief. To keep her quiet during the robbery, the woman tied Isabelle up like a sausage in her long nylon servant’s uniform and then tightly gagged her.

6. Caroline Garnier, the beautiful eighteen-year-old shopgirl at the bakery has been kidnapped by a thirty-year-old woman during the course of her work. The woman was so much stronger than Caroline and had no problem making her helpless and taking the young girl, who now ten hours later has been tightly trussed up like a sausage and thoroughly gagged. “Have some patience, my dear, I’m not going to untie you yet; I like you too much like that, tightly bound and gagged.”

7. Returning home, Yves Garnier had a terrible surprise finding his young and pretty wife Martine tightly tied from head to toe to a post in the living room and thoroughly gagged. It was earlier that the young woman, in her long nylon dress, as she was preparing to leave for work, was approached by a thirty-something woman who came to the front door. Once inside, being so much stronger than the young wife, she had no problem overpowering and silencing her young victim.

Catherine has also taken some terrific self-bondage pictures which show her love of “nylon blouses” and tight ropes and that look of distress. She’s also made some cute images on the Atari that have much the same style as her drawings. One interesting thing that she’s told me about is the style of garment in France called a “blouse,” which is different from what we would call a blouse here in the States. Apparently in France it’s more like a housecoat or over-garment that a housewife might wear to protect her dress. And although this kind of garment apparently is no longer in style, it’s still available and worn by some, mostly more mature, women at home. Catherine’s favorites are blouses in nylon, which almost always appear in her drawings. It’s always fascinating to see someone who has such a unique style to her approach to bondage and to making picture, and I really hope we’ll be seeing more from Catherine in the future.