I wasn’t sure I should post this as I don’t like to post things where it sounds like I’m complaining. But, well, one thing I’ve noticed the last few years is an increase in “ghosting,” or the habit that some people have to just go silent or incommunicado during an email exchange.

It’s strange but I’ve had a number of such exchanges in just the last few months. I’ll be emailing with someone who’s interested in meeting to take pictures, they look good and are into bondage, it sounds like it’s going to happen, and then once it becomes time to commit and choose a date, the conversation goes silent. It’s baffling. On the one hand, I get it. Doing a photoshoot for Trannies in Trouble is a big step. There is some risk putting your face out there on the internet. But most of these people are people who have written me inquiring about doing a photoshoot.

I do have a little theory, which I have no data to support, but I sense that social media and smartphones have contributed to this weird self-defeating habit. So much online communication nowadays, especially texting, which has become so insanely popular, feels almost “throwaway” – you chat with someone, you put it out there, and if you lose interest, well, just close the tab and move on. I certainly didn’t find ghosting to be so common even ten years ago, although on Fetlife people have often complained about the general flakiness in meeting others.

The crazy thing is that among crossdressers and people who are into bondage, it’s a fairly small group of us who are online talking about this stuff and willing to meet, and one’s reputation does get around.

I actually had a really nice local CD write me back just last week and tell me that she was having second thoughts and felt she wasn’t really comfortable modeling right now. Getting such an honest message like that is very rare and I wrote her back to say that while I was sorry to hear she didn’t feel up to shooting, I actually respected her even more for being so honest and up front about it. For someone like that, the door will always be open for her if she ever changes her mind.

Of course no one is required to follow through on a photoshoot with me, even if we’re in the middle of planning a meeting. Even if someone wrote me the morning of a shoot and said, “Hey, I’m having second thoughts and don’t want to do this after all,” well, it would be disappointing and probably pretty annoying but, hey, I’m a realist and I wouldn’t want anyone to go through with it if they didn’t want to. I certainly don’t want to be the kind of producer who pressures people to do stuff that they aren’t comfortable with. That’s just bad karma. And in the scheme of things it’s not that big a deal if someone changes their mind. I’d rather hear “yes” but “no” is also fine. It’s the sudden silence that’s just so baffling and crazy making. I know I’m not the only one.

I don’t post here nearly often enough and I don’t intend for this blog to become an anthology of Sandra’s favorite bands, BUT lately over on Pandora I’ve been hearing a lot of the British ’70s glam-rock band Sweet and I’d forgotten how terrific they were. I hadn’t heard “Fox on the Run” in years when it played one afternoon while I was doing my makeup – took me right back to my Junior High School years. I also loved “Ballroom Blitz” back in the day. I don’t know how lead singer Brian Connolly made his voice do what it does, sounding so campy. When I hear it now I just think, “Do you know how gay this song sounds?” Love it.

One interesting thing I didn’t know about the band was that apparently they had mixed feelings about their early bubblegum-rock hits, most of which were written by their managers and songwriters Mike Chapman and Nicky Chinn. Of course those are the songs that made them famous and the only ones I’m familiar with! It must have really sucked to be playing stuff that’s making it onto the charts without being totally into it. Groovy outfits and hairstyles though. If only I could get my guy hair to look like that I’d never wear a wig again!

I have an online CD friend who occasionally sends me some music CDs to check out. One of her best picks was the first album from The Tubes. I had to do a long road trip a while back and that was definitely one of the many music CDs I brought along. Of course musical taste is such a personal thing so feel free to skip this one if it’s not working for you.

I’d never actually heard the first album from The Tubes all the way through though I knew some of it. The opening track, “Up From The Deep,” has all these weird time signature changes that must be incredibly hard to play. They’re great musicians and I’ve always been impressed by how high Fee Waybill can sing with that clear tenor voice of his.

The one track I somehow didn’t notice at first was “Mondo Bondage.” I wasn’t really paying attention to the lyrics and had forgotten the title until the third or fourth listening. Pretty silly stuff.

I could run away to spain
But I’d just get tied again
I could run off to jamaica
If this bondage I could breaka

I remember first hearing about The Tubes from my older brother, who had a wider taste in music than I did at the time. We especially listened a lot to their “Remote Control” album when it came out in ’79, produced by Todd Rundgren. I still really like it, with some very catchy disco-influenced sounds, but it’s also incredibly melancholy, part of the reason it appealed to me as a confused and miserable teenager. Good stuff.

And to completely shift gears, my friend also sent me another compilation of favorite songs on CD, including Lulu’s “To Sir, With Love,” which I have to agree is another favorite since hearing it again a few years ago, even if it’s not the least bit cool. Fun side note, apparently Lulu dated David Bowie briefly when they were both young and, well, she likewise never felt cool enough being with him. He reportedly suggested that she could lose some weight to have more of a “heroin chic” look, but said it in a charming way that wasn’t judgmental, just a helpful observation. Apparently they stayed friends for years. In any case her voice is amazing, as well as her stage presence and just how she moves and emotes. Lovely and still going strong at age 72.

This is another non-kinky post and I’ll be back to the bondage soon (I hope), but in the meantime last night I was alone at the house for a change, and I was dressed up, so I took it easy and watched Gary Gulman’s comedy special, “The Great Depresh,” about his lifelong struggles with depression. It’s really not a depressing show even though it sounds like it is. He’s an extremely likeable guy and very funny. I was only a little familiar with him before watching his special and really enjoyed it.

He’s struggled with the kind of debilitating “treatment-resistant” depression, as they call it, where he couldn’t even function – sleeping eighteen hours a day and completely mired in despair. We’ve all had bad days or periods in our lives, but this is an altogether different beast. I’ve talked about my own struggles with mood here in this blog, but by comparison my issues are mild. I’m basically (still) a garden-variety melancholic with good days and bad, but I function pretty well overall, and I typically never have problems getting up in the morning. I even had an ex-girlfriend years ago who was almost annoyed that I could wake up and be almost completely clear headed in about two minutes without any coffee.

Hearing more about Gary Gulman’s story it really makes me wonder, what is going on inside a person who experiences such deep depression? It really is a mystery, especially with someone who appears to be a sweet and charming man, with a good life and no apparent major traumas in his past beyond the typical disappointments of simply being alive. I’ve read a lot of books on depression in hopes of “fixing” my own mood disorder, and the thing that strikes me is that there’s always a paragraph where the author, usually a therapist or psychiatrist, will finally admit, “Well, we don’t really know what causes depression.” It’s kind of stunning in this day and age. There are loads of suspicions and tons of research about brain chemistry, social pressures, trauma, learned helplessness, PTSD, isolation, and stress, but in the final analysis there’s still this huge mystery as to why some people struggle repeatedly with low moods and despair and others don’t, or at least not in any persistent manner. The persistence is the thing that’s brutal.

In any case, this does sound like a heavy post but “The Great Depresh” is actually very entertaining and enjoyable, and Gary Gulman has such a light and engaging manner about him that it’s just like listening to a series of interesting life stories. Worth catching if you have access to HBO.

We all have our own favorite go-to videos, the ones that turn us on every time…or at least until we’ve seen them fifty times in a row! And even then they can still be pretty hot.

I’ve joined a good number of paysites over the years and what I find is that there are usually only a handful of scenes that really turn my crank, so to speak. What turns us on is just such a personal and individual thing, and can be so specific, about a certain gag or a certain outfit or a favorite color of hose. I’ve had people write me about scenes that I’ve thought of retiring from my website and they surprised me by saying it was one of their favorites! I’d say if I find ten percent of the scenes to be hot on a given websites then that’s pretty good. And I’m sure it’s probably the same for everyone who visits my website too (and whose support I always appreciate!) I wish every update could be super hot for everyone but again it’s all personal taste and preference.

One of my favorite videos on my site is a short struggle video with Silvia Snow tied cross-legged and gagged with smooth duct tape. There’s no storyline but she pleads and plays the damsel very well and the scene suggests that she maybe got robbed and left that way or abandoned by some unscrupulous bondage partner earlier that night. This was a scene that we shot right at the end of the night, just a “quickie” scene before we called it quits, and it exceeded expectations. Silvia was just so cute and I find the video really hot.

Another scene that I really like – well, actually the still photos in this one – is the first scene I ever shot with Ashley Washington. I just love the woman’s business suit she was wearing and the sexy platform heels she had on. She just looks so cute and pretty, like a helpless young TS office lady in a bind – definitely a favorite.

It’s funny that with both of these models, Silvia and Ashley, I only got to shoot with each of them once or twice. Sometimes distance gets in the way, or people move on, or time just passes. There are many other scenes that I enjoy on my site, and so many sexy and attractive girls that I’ve worked with. I find though that I rarely ever get turned on by looking at myself in bondage, though I know some models love to see themselves bound. Somehow though it rarely ever clicks for me seeing myself tied up, although the recent video with the Irish Eights cuffs came pretty close.

I hope everyone who reads this blog has some favorite videos or scenes that also stand out on T’s in Trouble. If you’d like to share, do let me know what your favorites are and what you particularly like to see – I’m always looking for inspiration!

As I mentioned on Twitter I heard the Bee Gee’s song, “Nights on Broadway” two days ago on Pandora and it’s still stuck in my head! It’s funny, but growing up in the “Disco Sucks!” era I was completely dismissive of them. Music of course is such a personal preference, and a song or band either grabs you or it doesn’t. It took me a while but I’d have to say they’re now one of my favorite groups.

An online friend sent me a link to the same song being performed live and it’s pretty darn good. I especially enjoy the look of relaxed concentration in Robin Gibb’s face when he comes in with his lines. And Maurice Gibb doing his falsetto at the end just makes me smile! The only sad thing is how Barry Gibb is the only one left, his brothers all long gone. They defined an era, of which I was mostly oblivious as a kid but I appreciate them so much more now that I’m old(er).

Having a search box on the video page is something I’ve wanted for a few years now, so I was thrilled when I was able to hire a PHP programmer a couple of weeks ago who finished the job in about two days! I’m decent with basic HTML and CSS but actual programming with PHP is way beyond my abilities. I find that getting special projects crossed off my to-do list seems to take forever (as is probably the case with most people), but it’s such a thrill when something new gets done beyond the weekly updates.

I need to go through the individual picture galleries now and clean up some of the video links on individual pages, as I know a lot of those are a mess (and again that will take a while.) But at least everything on the video page itself is working great! Thankfully I’ve been pretty good at entering keywords for the videos, probably for at least the last ten years, so it should make finding specific videos a lot easier. And finding your favorite models should be a breeze.

Of course now I need to remove a lot of the old ones and produce a bunch of new ones to take their place! No rest for the wicked ;-)

We’re still only at the end of February but I find myself wondering where we’ll be with the Covid pandemic at the end of 2021. The numbers have dropped significantly since the holiday surge (though at this point they’re still at about the same level as they were back in July, when it was bad.) But with the vaccine rollout you can sense that life may just get back to something kinda like what it used to be. For many the feeling is already that this thing is over!

At the same time I have the kind of personality that’s always thinking, “What could go wrong?” If you’re shooting bondage pictures that’s not a bad trait to have, what with the risk of a bondagette starting to become panicky or stressed, which does happen from time to time. But I also know my caution can make me seem like a total Debbie Downer. I find myself thinking, what are we not seeing that will screw up the pandemic and cause it to drag out for another year or two? Or will the virus simply trick us and mutate around our best defenses? It’s not inconceivable.

Last week I learned an uncle in Indiana died from Covid. It was a typical case: in the hospital for three weeks, difficulty breathing, never on a ventilator but close to it, and finally reaching a crisis point and dying a few days later. I hadn’t seen this uncle in over forty years, so while the news was sad it didn’t hit me the way it did my mother, his younger sister. She took the news as well as she could but I know it shook her up bad, of course. There was a nice zoom memorial service but I couldn’t stop wondering about his time in the hospital – how aware was he, how badly did he suffer, and what was his mental state at the end?

Many of us at this point have lost family members or friends, or have known people who have gotten very sick (I was emailing with one possible model on the east coast who said it took her three months to fully recover – Yikes!) One risk that some experts worry about is the possibility of another surge being brought on by the Covid variants. Apparently the UK variant (B.117) is spreading the fastest of any of them, doubling in number of cases every ten days. And the other day I was reminded that there’s also a California variant that may have been involved in the big surge we just came through over the holidays.

None of this is meant to be political, of course (and it’s still so crazy that this pandemic has become a political issue), but just some thoughts on my mind. I do find myself thinking of a time in the future when the models and I no longer get Covid tests before meeting up for a photoshoot – maybe at the end of the summer? Whenever that happens I’ll know it’s basically over. Of course then I’ll be going out dressed every weekend for the next three months – and probably half of you reading this will do the same! I still wonder though about the future and about any possible surprises that may, or may not, lie in wait for us. But let’s hope that all the Debbie Downers like me are completely wrong. Doing the TEASE Party again or hanging out at Hamburger Mary’s and hugging friends as we meet for dinner would be sweet indeed. Handshakes, though? No, I’ll never do that again.

I hope everyone had a nice time over Christmas and Hanukkah. Christmas was quiet for me but still a pleasant day. I did a zoom call with my family earlier in the afternoon (before dressing!) There are only four of us now, and while I love my family very much, they are, well, family, and can sometimes drive me crazy. I find with zoom calls I often tend to shut down emotionally and mentally edit what I share with them, which brings me down. So this time I tried to make a point of talking more about what was really on my mind, without being a jerk about it.

At one point my sister in law suggested we all have another zoom call on New Year’s Eve. In the past I might have just reluctantly gone along with it, but this time I basically told them, “Well, I’m going to be dressing up and wearing makeup so maybe we should do it another time.” My brother and sister in law just laughed, and I have no idea what my Mom thought, as she didn’t say anything at all, but at least I spoke up. Sometimes it’s best to just tell the truth and be done with it – and if I did that all the time I’d probably be a lot happier – but it sure ain’t easy!

In any case I’m feeling a bit uncertain about what the new year will bring. I always wonder at the end of the year if I’ll still be regularly shooting new material for Trannies In Trouble this time next year. Most likely I will be, but with this year we’ve just lived through anything is possible. In any case it’s coming up fast. I hope you all have a fun and relaxing time Thursday night – Happy New Year!

Like many I’ve had a lot on my mind and too much solitary time to think about this strange and awful year that we’ve been living through; some of what I’m writing here may be overly reflective, so if you prefer to just check out the bondage pics below and skip the text that follows I won’t be offended.

I just read an interesting article in the Minneapolis Star Tribune online asking, is 2020 the worst year ever? They point out that 1918 was pretty bad with the devastating flu pandemic of the day, and that 1968 was a bad one with the assassinations and riots, and – one I’d never even heard of! – that 536 was maybe the worst of all, “the year a volcano erupted in Iceland and the sun dimmed for a year and a half, leading to a catastrophic global cold spell.” But still 2020’s been pretty bad.

I’ve been pretty lucky and haven’t really had too many major changes to deal with, aside from the lack of parties and events to go to, and a break from shooting with other models that I took in the spring and early summer. For someone like me though who often deals with low moods, in a weird way this year has had moments that have been almost reassuring, as though the world now reflects back to me how I often feel (and by no means do I mean to diminish the loss and suffering of others by saying this.) But it is something I’ve noticed. I’m always half-expecting things to fall apart, and in some ways this year they did.

There is of course the tendency for some to say, “Hey, this pandemic is overblown and it’s not that bad.” I would answer that there are plenty of people whose lived experience would argue otherwise, and that the tendency to minimize is a normal, if self-deluding, impulse for dealing with tragedy. There have been so many stories reported, and one of the best I’ve read was in Time Magazine last May, describing the efforts in New York City to bury the dead. It’s very sobering but if you enjoy good writing it’s worth the time.

Conspiracies – I mentioned earlier too my Mom’s love of conspiracy theories. The events of this year have made it harder to talk about things with her, as there’s always some story to explain the pandemic and the political situation here in the States – 5G, background radiation, the Satanists and pedophiles, the Reptilian overlords, the hollowed-out space-station moon, the deeply offensive “theory” that Michelle Obama is really a man, and so on. It’s exhausting. So we often limit our phone calls to small talk and to the weather, which is kind of sad but you take what you can with family.

I have been shooting again with other models lately, though the number of shoots has been limited compared to last year. I’ve shot a couple times recently with Star Nine, who’s SO good at playing the devious femme fatale (in fact she’s about the only one who’s tied me up since March – not that I’m complaining!)  I’ve also seen my friend Milf Jeanne a number of times and have shot some really fun and sexy scenes with her, including an outdoor one coming up in the next few months.

I have been dressing up more often this year too, just because I like to even if there is no place to go! And when I check in to hotels for photoshoots I usually dress up in my “casual” Sandra mode. There’s something about showing up at the hotel already dressed that I prefer – it just feels more honest – and with everyone wearing a mask it actually makes it very easy and no big deal at all. Being a germ phobe even before the pandemic I’ll probably be one of the last people to stop wearing a mask, especially when checking into a hotel – can never be too safe! ;-) Besides, I wouldn’t be surprised if another pandemic were to hit within five years of the end of this one – I fear it could become our new normal. And I also suspect that getting back to normal is going to take a lot longer than many expect. I’m bracing for it to be a long haul still. Then again, who knows? I’ll be perfectly happy if I’m totally wrong on all this.

Elliot Page – One interesting bit of news was seeing Elliot Page (formerly Ellen Page) come out as trans and non-binary. It’s totally cool that they’re expressing themselves and being who they are. But I’ll admit – and I kind of feel like a jerk for saying this – but when I heard the news I was also a little saddened by it. When Elliot was Ellen they were so cool and cute and adorable that a part of me thinks, “Please don’t take the male hormones and totally change your looks!” Of course it’s none of my business, but as a crossdresser who has had yearnings and desires to be a woman for decades now part of me can’t help but think, “Oh no, what a waste!” Of course this is totally my own reaction filtered through my own “stuff.” But still. I do wish them the best though with whatever path they take.

In any case, just last week I saw Star Nine again in Anaheim and shot four new videos with her, both of us getting tested for Covid beforehand. I knew the stay-at-home order in California was coming soon, and after Star left I stayed over at the hotel, my legs sore and shaky in a good way from the afternoon’s bondage. The next morning I got up wondering why the room smelled slightly smoky and why my throat felt tight. I didn’t think much of it so I did my makeup, dressed in my casual Sandra mode, and finished packing. As I went outside to load up the car I realized that there had been more wildfires nearby overnight and there was now a huge orange cloud over the city of Anaheim. It seemed almost fitting pulling out onto the freeway and heading home, the orange glow overhead and the fires in the hills receding behind me as I drove away. Let’s hope things are a little better next year.

Well, it was a quiet Thanksgiving for me here in Southern California but it was perfectly fine. I usually don’t see my family anyway till New Year’s so I often spend Thanksgiving on my own, and this year it was pretty inevitable with the Covid situation (since my roommate was out). I did talk to a friend recently and she told me she had just hopped on a plane and was now hanging out with friends in another state. As I’ve mentioned before I’m a mild germ phobe, so going to an airport and standing in line among a bunch of strangers is about the last thing I’d want to do. Being in the plane is maybe less worrisome due to the good air filters they apparently use but it’s all that coming and going before and after that would freak me out. But I didn’t give my friend a hard time; it’s her decision and she felt perfectly safe.

I did do a zoom call with my family (of course I arranged for that to happen early before getting into Sandra mode!) and then later after dressing I made a small meal and caught up on some movies. I saw “Midsommar” on Amazon Prime, which turned out to be so creepy and disturbing that I’m not sure it was the best choice, though it is good if you like horror. The same director also made “Hereditary” with Toni Collette, and you can really see the similarities, especially that feeling of slowly growing dread – fun stuff for the holidays! ;-)

An online friend also sent me a copy of “The Girl in the Spider’s Web,” which has a nice scene with the lead, Claire Foy, sealed up by her sister in a full-body latex sleepsack – the scene is maybe not played up to the same degree that fetishists and bondage fans like ourselves would like to see but it’s still pretty hot. By that point I’d had one too many glasses of wine so I was getting a little foggy on the plot anyway. All in all though it was not a bad way to spend the day, dressing and relaxing, and I’ve done much worse. We’ll see where we’re at next year.

So for everyone here in the States I hope you also had a nice Thanksgiving, however you spent it, whether online or face to face. And for everyone, stay safe and be well! Hugs, Sandra

Like so many things this year Halloween has been a lot quieter, though I did get to dress up and watch a good zombie movie with my housemate, “Train to Busan,” which was thoroughly enjoyable.

Let’s hope that next year (maybe next summer or fall?) we’ll be back to going out to West Hollywood again for the big street party. Whenever they do get back to it I’m sure it’ll be the biggest blow-out they’ve ever had. Something to look forward to. In the meantime here are a few pics from last year with my friend Ikaras, plus Victoria Venery and of course Jon Woods and Lorelei from bedroom bondage. Fun night!

Hi Everyone…I’ve been a little quiet on the blog lately, and it’s obviously been a strange and worrisome summer with the coronavirus pandemic going on. As I’ve said earlier, there are a lot of opinions about what’s going on, and lots of politics involved, which I don’t need to comment on, though all the polarization does sometimes make me scratch my head. I’ll just leave it at that!

The last few months though I’ve shot a number of self-bondage videos (probably still five or six of them that I haven’t yet released). And since it appears that the pandemic isn’t going away anytime soon, I’ve also cautiously started to shoot again with other models, taking as many precautions as I can.

Here in L.A. County you can get free Covid testing, though getting the results can sometimes take several days, which makes it much less useful, though it’s something if both the model and me have mostly been staying home. There’s also a lab where the porn stars go which I’ve started to use where they do one- or two-day results. You gotta hand it to the porn stars – if we all took testing (for STDs and now Covid) as seriously as they do, we could bring down the infection rates of this disease considerably in just a couple months.

In any case, I’m trying to be as cautious as I can, getting tested before each shoot and just meeting one on one with the other models. I’ve shot about seven scenes so far, a few with my friend Jeanne and a few with GG Star Nine. And I’ve been reaching out to other models. Everyone has their own comfort level of course and some want to shoot and others want to wait, which I totally understand.

I have been shooting at a slower pace, not surprisingly, and I’ve been posting a lot of the older and “reserve” material that I normally try to keep on hand. So I’ll probably have to slow down my update schedule just a little bit in a month or so, but I’ll post more about that as it gets closer. Trannies in Trouble is continuing on – I’m not going away or shutting down, but I also want to continue to move ahead cautiously, especially with L.A. County still being the Covid hotspot in Southern Californa.

In any case thanks again for everyone’s support and understanding in this strange time. I’ll try to write more news as it comes. In the meantime here are a few recent preview framegrabs from upcoming videos – these were all a blast to shoot! Stay safe and have fun! Hugs, Sandra

Hi Everyone! We’re definitely feeling the approaching summer here in L.A. Things are slowly opening up and the traffic is picking up though the modified lockdown in L.A. is still going on, probably sometime into July, though I don’t know for sure. So it’s a strange time.

I did shoot another self-bondage video, though, which I just posted over on the site. It was a warm night so I’m wearing my tight white retro underwear. I strike some poses and then do a quick book review of a Brenda Starr book that a friend recently sent me. Then it’s on to some self-bondage with some big bulge Hitachi action and finishing up chairtied with the Hitachi strapped into my lap till it finishes me all off!

I also have another video coming up in a couple weeks with the “ice and key” trick that I mentioned over in the Fetlife Group. And I shot another one where I panicked after a few minutes, not sure if I’ll post that one or not but we’ll see. It sure reminded me that self-bondage is risky and you want to make sure you have plenty of ways to get out if you really get stuck or start to lose your nerve – which actually happens to me pretty easily with self bondage in spite of all my experience.

In any case I hope you’re all well and dealing with things as we head into the summer – take care!

Hi Everyone! How are you? Are you staying safe and doing okay? I’m doing fine and I also have days when I think I’m slowly losing it. So in many ways my experience is probably about average. I’m one of those people who has a fairly comfortable living situation and food in the fridge and wine on the counter. And also I’m sometimes fairly stressed. But I’m very aware that I’m much better off than many.

At the same time, though, this is tough for everyone. One thing I’ve been dealing with, like many, is trying to stay in touch on the phone with my family. I don’t talk about my Mom or my family much, but my Mom is heavily into conspiracy theories and it can sometimes be a bit exhausting talking to her on the phone. I try to check in every couple days but some days I have to brace myself. There are loads of conspiracy theories online, so I won’t repeat all of them but due to her influence I’ve become familiar with many of them. I only hope that she doesn’t cavalierly treat Covid 19 as just a big hoax and get sick with it, as she could have a difficult time were she to become ill.

The funny thing about having a family member who’s into conspiracies is that their worldview can slowly make you start to question things, even if you don’t really believe any of the conspiracies yourself. That’s how conspiracy theories work; they get into your mind and make you start to question basic assumptions, and then a few months later you find yourself thinking, “Wait a minute, maybe there really are shape-shifting reptilians below the surface of the earth who are running the government!? I mean, if you can conceive of it it could be possible, right?”

I’ve even read some articles she’s sent me and listened to podcasts where I’ve been worried I might start to believe the latest Covid 19 conspiracies. But the reassuring thing is that so many of these websites make such sweeping and dramatic arguments with only questionable evidence to back them up (the inevitable “One World Government” being a good example). So I generally find there’s little risk of being sucked into their worldview since they just don’t argue their position in a very convincing way – you either buy into it already or you don’t. Plus, a lot of them are just poorly written. If someone keeps messing up “there,” “they’re” and “their” I tend to move on even if they do have some cool artwork about the digitally-produced Matrix that we’re all living inside. The crazy thing is that a lot of these conspiracy websites practically believe that the Wachowski sisters’ movie was a documentary.

Having said all this it’s maybe a little creepy to shift from my Mom to my self-bondage escapades but I’m pretty sure she’ll never read this blog. Here’s a picture from another bit of fun I got into last week, with a very big tapegag that was inspired by a recent custom video that I shot. It’s hard to do something really creative here in my small bedroom but I’m doing my best to come up with something sexy and strict. If you’re doing the same feel free to comment and share your experiences. I don’t know if this blog post makes much sense or if I’ll delete it tomorrow (Oh crap, I can’t talk about my Mom!), but for now here it is. In any case I’m planning to try to do more shenanigans tomorrow! Take care and stay safe!

Like many of you I’ve been going a little stir crazy with the stay-at-home order that was issued on March 19th here in California. In some ways my life hasn’t dramatically changed, as I’ve always spent a lot of time working from home on the computer, but I sure do miss going out to see friends, going to parties and going to the gym. Plus, as I’ve mentioned before, I’m a mild germ phobe so the coronavirus has certainly increased my sense of dread and anxiety, as it has for many. But I’m dealing with it and most of the time I’m feeling fine. I’m also very grateful to be living in a house with a roommate who’s also being careful and taking things seriously.

Last weekend though I decided to get dressed up and see if I could shoot a little self-bondage video. I dressed up in a slutty tranny outfit and tried on some lace-top stay-up hosiery. I’m not sure if I liked the hose that much but they did feel sexy to wear, as the elastic around my thighs was very tight and had sort of a bondage-y feel to them. Here are a few framegrabs from the video. I still need to edit it some more and make sure it’s worth posting, but I’ll probably add it to the site in a couple weeks. I’m already thinking of what I can do next to pass the time!

I hope you’re all doing well out there and staying healthy. Stay safe and let’s get through this separated but together.

(Well, I hate to report but Vimeo canceled Michael’s podcast, so the link no longer works. But it was fun while it lasted! Let’s hope he’s up and running on another platform soon!)

I recently did an interview with Michael over at ByTheRopePodcast which he just posted. It was a lot of fun chatting with him about bondage and the website business. What he’s doing is really cool – interviews with Damsel in Distress Bondage Models and Producers with an added emphasis on shiny pantyhose.

Michael is also over on Twitter, definitely worth the follow. I’m hoping to do more with him in the future, including some upcoming reviews of Trannies In Trouble videos – Great guy!