Self Denial – My three-month orgasm control program was interesting and, technically, a failure. As I wrote earlier, I tend to enjoy my kinks more the fewer orgasms that I have, so it can be exciting to spread them out over a period of time and try to go weeks between them. My plan was to limit releasing myself to only once per month. I was able to do that for the month of July and strangely enough it wasn’t that difficult, though at the end of the month, when I was at Fetishcon, I was starting to climb the walls. August and September though were suddenly much more difficult and I broke down and had two orgasms for both of those months. In September they weren’t even that far apart, about six days, I believe.
So although five orgasms over a three-month period isn’t very many, I simply wasn’t able to control myself as much as I had hoped to. In fact, by the time that September came, I was going a little crazy and am actually surprised that I only had two for the entire month, as I could have easily had many more. So for now, I’m going to take a break from the program and just try to space things out as far as I can, but without any specific numbers in mind. It was an interesting experiment and I would highly recommend trying it for anyone who’s curious about orgasm denial or chastity. When you go a long time without any release it can really add a heightened intensity to those moments when you get turned on, and it can make it just mind-blowing when you do finally give in. If you’re really lucky you can sometimes have the kinds of orgasms that you remember years later, rather than the usual duds (almost like blowing your nose) that I’m so familiar with.
Email and Twitter – My ability to keep up with email is as bad as ever, with a long queue of messages that I may or may not get to. I know when it reaches that overwhelm point, quite often I simply never get around to replying. I really dislike doing that (it really sucks!) but I know there are many people over the years whom I’ve never gotten back to and I hope they don’t resent me for it. Friends and contacts whom I see in real life I try to make an extra effort for, but sometimes I’m bad even with them, especially when my mood is low, which as I’ve mentioned several times on this blog, happens more often than I like to admit.
I also haven’t really had a lot to blog about lately, and feel like I’ve been neglecting things here, but I have lately been fairly active on Twitter. I actually find I like it a lot more than I expected and I kind of wish all emails were limited to 140 characters – I’d be completely caught up if they were! My profile is here and there are a lot of other bondage people on the site too. It’s really easy to post individual pictures on Twitter too, much easier than on the blog, so I’ve been posting some pics there too. I don’t own a smart phone so thankfully I can’t go around all day long texting messages to post, which is for the best. And I’d hate to be one of those fanatics who tweets fifty times a day. Believe me, my life is not THAT interesting. I’m also on Facebook and Fetlife, so if you’re on those sites and would like to send me a friend request, please do. I say yes to most everyone, unless you start sending me political emails!
So that’s my exciting update – not-very-succesful orgasm control, way behind on email and posting random sexy pics and silly cartoons on Twitter – Yes!